Baby Bump Thursday: 11 weeks

Yay for another week! Normally when i put ami down for a nap, i take a nap on the couch too. So today i lay there for about an hour and never fell asleep. Guess i dont need a mid day nap anymore! My baby bump app says the life support system for my "fetus" is now all the way formed, so the tiredness will start to go away. Yippee!! I hated not ever having energy, but i'm glad to have it back now :)

So 11 weeks:

This week the baby is officially a fetus, not an embryo and is the size of a lime! How cute :) The organ system development is over, and the baby will grow very rapidly and will double in size by next week. Wow!! Also, morning sickness is supposed to subside this week, but since i never had any i guess i got lucky! (knock on wood) Here's my pic:

Ami was playing with my mirror lol (which i know is dirty lol)

Ok i'm gonna go start dinner now. I'm making 5 cheese ziti :) talk to ya'll later !

Have to get this out

So I need to get something off of my chest. I honestly think some people have no feelings for what they say about other people. We have all had people talk about us behind our backs, and let's face it, we have talked about people too. I know i have, but most of the time it's harmless, nothing really bad lol. I believe in karma, so i try not to judge others. But honestly some people just boggle my mind.
Most people don't know this, but i had some problems around august (female problems if you will) and they were pretty sure on what it could be, something called endometriosis. I don't know exactly what it is, but it causes scar tissue and make it harder to get pregnant. However they don't do the tests to see if you have this condition until it's been a year of infertility. So we will probably never know if i have it, but that's ok. I'm pregnant now!! Pretty much since corey came from iraq (in december) we knew we wanted to have another baby, and since it was so easy to get pregnant with ami, i hoped it would be again. But in the back of my head i always thought, "what if i can't have anymore". So after many months of negative pregnancy tests, and stress and tears, we finally got the good news! All of our family and friends were really happy for us, and i don't think i could have been more happy for us! But come to find out, (as always) there are still people out there that aren't so excited. Apparently i'm "stealing thunder" from others with the baby news, and that kind of hurts my feelings. It also makes me laugh. You really can't consider me and this person "friends" and it's been this way for quite awhile. And even though we aren't close anymore, i still wish the best for this person. But really? are you jealous? or are you bitter because of the way your life is going right now? i know everyone has problems in their life. i get it. I have people in my family who are sick, who don't have jobs, and i'm dealing with being alone away from everybody. But i don't sit and come up with crazy false things about people to make myself feel better. I am so grateful for what i do have in my life, and what will be here soon :). some people shouldn't be able to speak lol. anyway that's all i got right now. i'm gonna get back to my sunday. happy nascar everybody!

Baby Bump Thursday: 10 weeks

Yay we are in the double digits! woo hoo! I'm feeling more tired than ever, and i think the weather up here has something to do with it (besides of course the fact that i'm growing a human being!). It's always gloomy so that just makes me sleepy. 

So the baby is the size of a prune, about .14 oz. Dang that's small! The 10th week marks the beginning of a critical period our baby's development when all the vital organs have formed and are beginning to function. The baby is also growing tiny nails on the fingers and toes as well as tiny buds for teeth. (BTW, i don't make this up i have a baby bump app that gives me week by week info on the baby lol). Here is the belly.

Since i'm a second time mom, they say you start to show earlier, and can feel movements sooner too. I swear i feel this baby flutter all the time. 

We went to the dr. on monday and got to hear the heartbeat, and ami thought it was so cool! Later when we got home corey played the video he recorded of it, and ami said "baby!". It was so cute!

As for me, I'm feeling really down, and i even started crying at the dr's when she asked how i was doing! I thought it was just hormones at first, (even commercials would make me cry) but since i got back from cali i haven't been the same. I cried to corey last night for about an hour and luckily he had all the right words to tell me. I am just feeling so useless, with not working, or going to school. Trust me i want to, but daycare is WAY too much money, and i don't really know how much work i could do anyway, considering i have had some issues with my back already. I know i take care of a toddler all day and keep up with the house, but i still feel like i could do more. He assured me i do plenty, and even today he has helped so much! I'm so blessed to have him, i just wish my family was around too (and my close friends). I miss them all so much, and i wish they could all just take turns living up here with us so i have someone familiar with me. 

I dont know, i'm just struggling a lot more with this pregnancy than i ever remember with the first. I feel like it could be more than hormones, but who knows. And on top of all these crazy emotions, i find out there are "rumors" going around about a deployment to Afghanistan at the end of the year. Yep right when the baby should be here. Hopefully it's just a crazy rumor, but you never know. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time, because this is just way too stressful. I know there are others out in the world who are dealing with more, and who are pregnant at the same time, so i guess i should be thankful for what i do have. But i just can't help my thoughts and my emotions. I honestly can't wait till next month when we get to come to cali, because that's the only place that truly feels like home anymore. Well, i'm off to take a nap now, until next time friends :)

Baby Bump Thursday: 9 weeks

Ok Ok i missed a week! Sorry guys! California does that to me haha! When I get back to Washington i will definitely keep up with this thing!

So I'm 9 weeks today, and my baby our baby is the size of an olive (a green one to be exact). The hands and feet look a lot less like paddles and have more formed fingers and toes. The head is still larger than the rest of the body and the eyes are fully developed but are covered by the eyelids which are fused shut for the next 16 weeks or so. Inside the internal reproductive organs, testes or ovaries, are starting to form but will not be quite distinguishable until the next couple of weeks. 

Here is my pic

Again don't mind the messy hair and no make up lol. I'm really lazy lately sorry haha. 

I can't wait to have this baby already, and i really hope that all of my family can come up to washington for christmas (since i wont be able to fly and i dont wanna risk going into labor in the middle of a long drive lol). 

So this weekend was memorial weekend and i had so much fun. 

First off, on Friday i went to the Glee concert with 2 really good friends. I didn't take many pics because the lights at the concert blurred the people on the stage! but i have a few :)

 On the way to the concert (what? i was bored in the back seat lol)

 Before it started (BTW those jerseys you see right there were about 80 bucks! ridiculous!)

 Nikkie!!!!

 This was a little mini stage out in the middle of the audience, so they were really close to us here :) This is Puckerman with his guitar singing "Fat Bottomed Girls"

The Warborlers :) i really don't know how you spell that haha. 

 And my awesome Glee shirt!!

I dont know why i dont have any pics with Drea, but i know she got some on her camera. It was such a fun show and of course I cried a few times lol. 

I'm not gonna mention that a certain personal possession got lost and we had to drive all the way back to the Honda center (ahem Nikkie) lol. no but i'm glad i went with her, and i'm even more glad somebody actually turned it in with everything still in it! (there are still good people in the world)

On Sunday we had a BBQ at my parents' house and we had so much food i thought i was in heaven! haha. We made burgers and hot dogs and everyone brought side dishes, and boy it was all so good! I got to see a good friend from elementary school who i haven't seen since then! That was really nice catching up with her and meeting her adorable daughter and very nice fiance. Here is the cake, which i didn't even eat! surprising i know! 

 

I used an app on my phone called instagram to make it look like this. Download it!

I hope everyone had an amazing memorial day! I know i did! The only thing missing was my husband, the man of the hour haha!