Well it's another day...Another day of missing everyone, another day of feeling crappy, another day of just blah. I'm tired of feeling sad and depressed all the time. I'm tired of feeling like I'm not doing enough around the house. I'm tired of feeling distant from my husband. I'm just tired. Not physically (let's face it, i don't do enough to be physically tired), but emotionally. I don't remember feeling this way with my first pregnancy, but then again not all pregnancies are the same. I would think at least mine would be though. I can't wait until my next appointment on wednesday. The last time i went the dr. had told me about a counseling program, but of course i can't remember where or when it is, so i'm gonna ask her when i go next week. Hopefully that will help me. I also wanted to try and find a church out here. (when does church NOT help right?) A friend of mine told me about one out here, unfortunately i looked it up and it's an hour away :( i might still go at least once to check it out. I am willing to drive that far at this point. 

Yesterday i had another wonderful "episode" of back nerve pain. Corey was at work, and I was playing with Ami in her room. She is so talkative and excited to tell me everything, it's the cutest thing. Sometimes it's too much i don't know what she's saying! But i layed on the floor on my side, and when i went to get up, i couldn't. My nerves just shoot pain all through my back and legs, it's unbearable. So i kind of wait of few minutes, and try again. Nothing. So i ask Ami to grab my phone which is down by my feet. I'm trying not to freak out, so since i'm calm Ami thinks it's a game and takes about 5 minutes before she actually brings it to me. When i look at my phone i have a text from corey saying he has to take chow to guys in the field, and he won't be home till 8. (it was about 5 at this point). Of course, i freak out, because i dont know how i'm gonna get off the floor, let alone get out to the kitchen to feed Ami and myself. I call him (crying of course) and tell him what's going on, and how i can't move. He immediately tells me he will have someone cover him and he gets home pretty quick. He wanted to take me to the emergency room, but i didn't really wanna go. I mean, it's not like they were gonna do anything for me, as i experience just 2 days before. He is kind of annoyed with me though. Why would i not want to go and try and get some help? But i have my reasons, and honestly, i don't need anyone getting mad at me right now. So we have a little fight, on top of everything. Mind you, i'm still laying on the floor. I told him just help me out to the living room and let me rest for a minute and maybe it will go away. Then he decides to inform me that he told his 1st Sgt that he was gonna take me and would bring back paper work to him. So now i feel guilty for not going (again something i really don't need at this point). Sometimes, i feel like he doesn't understand what's going through my head right now. I don't think anybody does. Now i'm not using this blog to bash on my husband, so if you're reading this and think i'm being ridiculous, i don't care. I love him, and we were fine within 10 minutes. But i'm so tired of feeling guilty for having these emotions. If i wanna cry about something, let me cry. If i'm moody and don't feel like talking, don't sit here and pout about it. If i don't clean up my dishes when i'm done eating, do it for me, please. By the way, i have told all of this to corey, and he reads this, so it's not new to him. 

I don't think i have ever felt more useless and disgusting in my life. I hardly do my hair anymore, why should i? I shower and just let it dry on it's own, or put it up. We know how crazy my hair can get. I literally feel like i'm just a lump on the couch. I feel like my husband sees me as lazy. I feel like ami wants me to play with her, but i can't, and that is the worst feeling. I think out of everything, that's what is bothering me the most. She deserves a good mommy that will play with her. A mommy that will show her a good example. Not someone that sits and does nothing. I don't know.....I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish i could fast forward to having this baby, and going back to my normal self. I wish i could stop feeling guilty all the time. I wish i could just have a hug from my mom. Or sister. Anybody. Corey gives me plenty, but i wish i had a woman here who knows what kind of emotions i'm feeling right now you know? 

Just breathe. That's what I keep telling myself. That's all I can do. Anyway. I'm done for today. I'm gonna try and nap now. Get rid of this headache i now have. 

Am I ever gonna catch a break?

First of all, I want to say i love the commercial for the Kia soul, with the dancing hampsters and robots. It just came on, and I think it's hilarious.

Now, if I'm too much of an emotional mess and you're tired of reading all my crap, then do me a favor, and stop reading :) I'm so up to here with people's negative comments, whether they be straight to me, or behind my back. I'm tired of it. I feel like I have done nothing wrong in life to deserve this crap I'm going through.

I have been having back problems since pretty much the beginning of my pregnancy. It was mostly dull, tense pain, in my lower back. But now, i have the lovely Sciatic nerve pain. If you don't know what that is, google it. It's very painful, and common during pregnancy (yippee). It's a nerve pain in my lower back, almost as low as my butt, and it goes all the way down to my feet. I have learned what my limits are, so if i'm doing stuff around the house, and it starts to hurt, i stop. And that usually prevents it. So i have just learned to deal with it. What other choice do I have? I know it's temporary, and in the end, i get an awesome reward :)

All weekend corey has wanted to go to the fair in Puyallup (pronounced PEW-ALL-UP). I'm not a big fan of fairs, and never have been. But he seemed very excited about it. Today was military appreciation day, so it was free for us to get in. So i decided why not? It's a perfect time to use my camera :) It was overcast, so it was pretty cool (thank goodness) and it wasn't too crowded because most people were at work. We ate some fried food, played games, and ami got to ride a few rides. We were only there for about 2 hours, but I could feel my back telling me to slow down much earlier. I tried to sit down wheneve I could, and we limited walking far after that. We stayed in a pretty close circle and just did a few things with ami. She was having a blast, but i was hurting. BAD. We decide to leave (ami was hungry and ready for a nap, you can imagine the kind of melt down we had!) Corey walked to the car and picked us up near the entrance of the place, as close as he could get with all the cones everywhere. As soon as i got in the car and stopped moving, my back said "Hi remember me! I hate you today!" It was the worst pain i have had this entire pregnancy. It was only my left side, with pain shooting all the way down to my foot. I layed on my right side to try and relieve some pain, and that made it worse. I started crying, (yes i know) and corey knew it was worse than usual. All i kept thinking was "Why? why can't i just enjoy one day with my family without having pain to ruin it?" He asked if i wanted to go to the emergency room, but ami was so crabby I just wanted to get home to bed. Ami actually fell asleep with a french fry in her hand, it was the funniest thing. So we get home, i go lay down with ami, and i can't get comfortable to make the pain go away. Ami decided she had a long enough nap in the car (15 minutes) so i asked corey to take me to the dr. They have a walk in area at the ob section of the hospital, so we went there. Luckily we only had to wait about 5 minutes to get seen. So the guy comes in, asks what's wrong, asks how bad the pain is, and guess what the verdict is? Pregnancy!!! Well i could have told myself that. Duh. I'm here for you to tell me what i can do to make it stop! And what's the answer to that? Stretch! Ok well thank you for that dude, really, I don't know what i would have done without your wonderful advice. Also, manage my weight, because that could make it worse. Look guy, I'm hungry as a whale, I'm gonna eat what I want, and as far as i can tell, I'm pretty much past the point of managing my weight. It's not like i can diet. Its not safe for the baby. So he gives me a pamphlet. A pamphlet. All about "Sciatica". Also, a brace that i have to go walk across the whole hospital to get. So we walk to the other side of hospital, and get pointed to 3 different places (all by rude people) only to be greeted by yet another rude worker who hates their job. Here's a tip lady, get a new job! It's not California, i'm sure you can find SOMETHING. She asks for my slip, looks at it, and says "can you bring this back tomorrow?" i was like uh sure? Corey was not having it lol. He said what time do you close? She says 3:30. He looks at his watch and guess what time it was? 3:31!!!!!! He said "you're really not gonna take her because of one minute and make us come back?" she mumbled something about being busy and ready to close. That just put me over the edge. How can someone be so inconsiderate? I understand people wanna get off work and go home. I get that i do. But honestly i like to think that if i was working there, and i saw a pregnant woman who looked like hell like i did today, i would help her out. Especially being a woman i thought she would understand. But no. I'm gonna have to go back tomorrow.

I'm so exhausated from crying so much, and i'm in pain, I just wish i could sleep (but of course, that's left the building too).

Well thanks for reading my rant, i'm sure there will be plenty more to come. 

Hormones? I think so :)

Hello everyone! I hope you all are having a nice day! As for us out here in Washington, we are doing well. We went to the circus on my birthday, and Ami loved it! She hardly sat in her chair, but she was dancing and shakin her booty the whole time. It was so cute to watch. That was what I wanted for my birthday. I love spending time with my family, I would rather have that than any gift. The elephants freaked me out, because we were in the second row, maybe 20 feet away from them. So the whole time I couldn't enjoy watching them, instead I was thinking of an escape plan! The rest of the show was awesome though! Some of the things those people do are crazy! Motorcycles on a tight rope, guys flippin around (while wearing no shirts lol), and girls hanging from a rope from their hair! It was crazy. I couldn't take my new camera in, and my phone wasn't getting good pictures because of all the lights.

That day was pretty much the only good day I have had in about a week. Anyone who has ever been pregnant, knows how crazy your emotions can get. One minute, I'm happy, the next, i'm crying and have no idea why. One day corey brought home Krispy Kreme, and I cried because it sounded so good i couldn't handle it lol. But lately, I don't know if i just miss home, or if there is seriously something wrong with me! Who am I kidding, I know i miss everyone in Cali. I miss my dad's cooking, I miss watching shows with my mom, I miss going into my sister's room to borrow something and practially running out because of the hairspray fumes ha. I miss my brother's humor, we can joke about everything. I miss my youngest brother's preteen attitude (believe it or not). I miss my friends, Nikkie, Drea, Christina, Tricia, Amanda, Raven. I even miss a very old friend who i haven't seen in probably 5 or 6 years (Sara). I miss being able to just go visit my extended family too (in-laws).  Being here, I know maybe a few people, but it seems like people around us don't really bother getting to know each other because there is always a cycle of new people coming in. Just since we came in March, I have seen 4 house on our street alone get new families. So I understand not wanting to get close to people. I found a group online for Ft. Lewis moms, and that was fun, and i met a couple nice girls.  I don't know, lately i feel very down, and we haven't even had rainy weather. Imagine how it's gonna be when the rain comes back! ugh.

And now, it's starting to effect my husband too. I honestly don't know how i got so lucky with someone as amazing as Corey, and most of you reading this have had the pleasure of meeting him. But he has seem more on edge lately, and I know it's because i am first. I am so hormonal, and homesick, and just plain uncomfortable 24/7. Who else am i supposed to take it out on right? Wrong. Yes, he is the only one around (besides our 2 year old), so i guess it seems easiest to complain to him about everything. But i have noticed him being in a bad mood too lately, and let's face it, that's not Corey. But anytime i ask him what's wrong, it's nothing, and he doesn't want to fight about it. I know he's probably irritated with me, because i'm difficult, i know that. I have a bad temper normally, and that's hard to admit, but it 's true. I'm not saying i'm gonna punch you out if you look at me weird, but people just annoy me lol. But if you add pregnancy hormones to that, oh boy watch out. Now the way i have learned to not cause problems, is to just stay quiet when something is annoying me, but of course, that makes corey ask me waht's wrong. repeatedly. and THAT annoys me. Just leave me alone. I feel bad, because i'm causing him to be on edge now. Anyway, i feel like i'm kind of rambling right now, and corey's got this towing show on that's really interesting haha. So i'm just gonna end it here. Basically if you pray, than feel free to pray for me and my family, just for peace, and patience. I can't wait to go home! If you don't, well send me a text to cheer me up now and then! lol I miss you all!

Also, take a moment to remember all those lives lost on 9/11 ten years ago, and for the families of those people. It was such a tragic day, and it kinda makes me feel silly for being annoyed that the juice was left out :p

Baby Bump Thursday (friday): 20 weeks

Wow it's been a long time! I'm officially halfway through this pregnancy, and honestly it feels like i still have FOREVER! Luckily the weather up here in Washington has been nice, and not cold so it doesn't give my back any problems (for now). I''m nervous for the cold weather because that's when it seems to act up the most. Well here is what the "bump" looks like now, i already feel as huge as a house.

 I actually curled my hair that day. You can't really tell but it's growing a lot! I'm never going as short as i did when i was pregnant with Ami. Some of you may remember my horrible disaster of a haircut, it was not cute. I wanted a bob, and she used clippers on my hair, that's how short it was! Ever since then i have done nothing but trim my hair because i'm afraid lol. And with these prenatal pills i'm taking it helps with the growing :)

20 weeks: The baby is 6.5 inches long, about the size of a small cantaloupe and weighs 10.6 ounces. This week your baby's skin will become covered with a waxy-like substance called vernix which will protect her skin from becoming scratched or chapped. Your baby is also starting to produce meconium, the result of digestion, which will accumulate in his bowels and eventually pass during delivery or in his first diaper. Ew! lol

So we are for sure on a first name, (if you don't know then you have to wait till she's born lol) but are still going through a couple middle names. We have a few family names we wanna use, and maybe a name from glee (shut up if you're rolling your eyes right now), but we also wanna wait until she is actually born too. The day she is born might sway us into deciding the name, at least the middle name. And that's all you get to know hehe. Some close family know, but we both agree that while it's fun to throw out names and discuss it with people, we think it's kind of rude when people make a face or rude comment on a name we're considering. It's no one's decision but me and corey's (and maybe ami's lol) what we name our daughter. So if you are doing this, knock it off! ha. Again, i'm not trying to say i don't want your opinion, I'm open to that. But please be respectful of what we like (at the very least talk behind our back if you want). 

Anyway, onto a new subject. Some people may or may not know that Corey is getting med-boarded out of the Army. Basically he has been having back problems for a long time, and he was finally able to see some doctors and he is no longer physically able to do his job anymore (infantry). Now he could have re-classed, which means he could change his job title and do some crap job at a desk or something (if you know Corey, you know he can't sit still lol), or he was given the option to be med-boarded. On the one hand, if he took a new job, he wouldn't be able to re-enlist, and he would finish out this contract (2 more years) and he would be done and out, and that's it. Thrown into the real world or no jobs and a recession. Or on the other hand, if he is med-boarded, he will be out in about 7 months (ish) and when he is out, he gets a paycheck still for the rest of his life, insurance for him and our family, a pension, AND the G.I. bill, (i'm not gonna explain that one, basically it's about 85,000 dollars for school, which we could both use). So obviously, we chose the med-boarding. It sucks because i am very proud of him, and he is proud to be a soldier and fight for this country, but this is what's going to be best for our family in the end. The best part: he is now and forever NON-DEPLOYABLE. This is by far the best news we could have gotten, because his brigade is more than likely getting deployed this winter, right when baby number 2 is due. I don't know if i could have had a baby while he was gone. I know so many military wives do it, but that's the one thing i don't think i could handle. (kudos to those women, seriously). SO, to make it short, we are going to be normal people again! What does that even mean? lol I have only ever been married to and Army guy, and now we are gonna be civilians! Ew. Just kidding! It's kind of weird to think that we will finally be back in California (yes!) permanently, with all our family and friends. No more goodbyes that we all hate so much. No more of our families watching our kids grow up on skype (except our family in Illinois, miss you guys!). I just can't wait! But for now, we have to finish out our time here in Washington. And did I mention i can't wait for the holiday season this year? It's my favorite time of the year already, but this year we will get a white christmas, nothing major just an inch of snow :) AND my family, and maybe some of corey's too, will be up here for Christmas, and the new baby! I really hope all of my siblings and my parents can come. My mom and brother were the only ones out of all of them that could come, and it sucked. It's going to mean so much to me to have them all there. 

Ok, enough of my blabbing, one last thing. I kind of have ocd right now with nail polish. Or i guess it would be more like hoarding, i dont know. But i always wanna buy like every color at the store, and do cute designs. I get ideas off of youtube, people do tutorials, so i never run out of ideas :) so if anyone wants to buy me some, feel free :) 

Happy friday everyone! I miss ALL of you, and can't wait to be home <3

Fireworks, Birthday Cake, Shamu, and Beach!

Hello everybody! It's been way too long! There has been lots of stuff goin on and i just am too tired at the end of the day to blog! lol. 

First, Corey had leave for 2 weeks, so we got to fly out to cali again. That's always nice!

Aren't they just the cutest? They were really comfty on the plane lol

Our first weekend here we got to spend 4th of July with all of our family! It's my favorite holiday too so i was so happy to have my hubby home, since last year he was still deployed :( On the 3rd we went to my grandma's house on my mom's side for a pool day. It was fun and all the little girls just loved corey! haha Here are my 2 loves :)

She seriously is the cutest thing ever, and she is growing so fast and learning so much!

Then the next day on the 4th, we had most of my dad's side over, and corey's parents came and some other friends too. It was a lot of fun! I learned how to make tutu's from another army wife in washington, and i'm obsessed now!

We aren't technically allowed to do fireworks in our city, and i would just like to say i didn't light anything! lol but of course the "big kids" brought their toys out and lit them anyway! Ami did love the sparklers though!

THEN the weekend after that we celebrated Ami's 2nd birthday. Her actual birthday is on July 26, but Corey had to be back up to Washington earlier in the month so we had her party on the 9th so he could be there. We did an under the sea/little mermaid theme, and everything ended up coming out really cute! I have a few pics from my phone that i took, but i'm still waiting on my best friend Nikkie to get me the rest of the pics she took on good ol' Trannie hehe.

Instead of doing goody bags, me and my mom came up with the idea to do little buckets, since it went with the theme. So here is a before picture, and after lol.

It really wasn't as bad as it looks lol. Ami had a lot of fun helping me put everything in too. 

Another idea we had was to put goldfish in little bowls for the center pieces on all the tables, and well, you can see for yourself how this idea turned out. 

If you can't tell, we had 2 fish in each bowl, and only 4 survived after a few hours. But don't worry all fishies go to heaven. R.I.P fish. you will never be forgotten. *moment of silence*

Alright that's over, now back to the party haha.

The beautiful birthday girl <3

And her cake.

And the bouncy slide/ pool thingy we got, which was a big hit for the kids.

This is ami and ava (my cousin's daughter). They were so cute!

Thank you again to everyone who came! We had a great time!

The day before corey left we went to sea world, and of course i loved it like always hehe. 

On our way:

Waiting for shamu to come out:

Ami waving at Zoe:

Then of course the next day we had to take corey to the airport and send him away, (again). I love when the sky looks really pretty so i try and take pictures :) sometimes i think it's my grandma shining down on all of us <3

And finally we all went to the beach for a friend of my dad's baptism and i had a really nice time just enjoying being outside and hanging with my fam. 

She's a good haha she was trying to kiss me.

Thought this was a cool pic ^

Tyler and ami were digging and making sand castles, so i decided to make a little something too :)

I can't get this picture to rotate lol. but they are just hearts :)

Anyway, i hope everyone is enjoying their summer, and hopefully sometime this week (if i can get an appointment) we will find out what the baby is!!! Pink of blue? what do you think?

And one last thing

She's out. SMH

Baby Bump Thursday: 11 weeks

Yay for another week! Normally when i put ami down for a nap, i take a nap on the couch too. So today i lay there for about an hour and never fell asleep. Guess i dont need a mid day nap anymore! My baby bump app says the life support system for my "fetus" is now all the way formed, so the tiredness will start to go away. Yippee!! I hated not ever having energy, but i'm glad to have it back now :)

So 11 weeks:

This week the baby is officially a fetus, not an embryo and is the size of a lime! How cute :) The organ system development is over, and the baby will grow very rapidly and will double in size by next week. Wow!! Also, morning sickness is supposed to subside this week, but since i never had any i guess i got lucky! (knock on wood) Here's my pic:

Ami was playing with my mirror lol (which i know is dirty lol)

Ok i'm gonna go start dinner now. I'm making 5 cheese ziti :) talk to ya'll later !

Have to get this out

So I need to get something off of my chest. I honestly think some people have no feelings for what they say about other people. We have all had people talk about us behind our backs, and let's face it, we have talked about people too. I know i have, but most of the time it's harmless, nothing really bad lol. I believe in karma, so i try not to judge others. But honestly some people just boggle my mind.
Most people don't know this, but i had some problems around august (female problems if you will) and they were pretty sure on what it could be, something called endometriosis. I don't know exactly what it is, but it causes scar tissue and make it harder to get pregnant. However they don't do the tests to see if you have this condition until it's been a year of infertility. So we will probably never know if i have it, but that's ok. I'm pregnant now!! Pretty much since corey came from iraq (in december) we knew we wanted to have another baby, and since it was so easy to get pregnant with ami, i hoped it would be again. But in the back of my head i always thought, "what if i can't have anymore". So after many months of negative pregnancy tests, and stress and tears, we finally got the good news! All of our family and friends were really happy for us, and i don't think i could have been more happy for us! But come to find out, (as always) there are still people out there that aren't so excited. Apparently i'm "stealing thunder" from others with the baby news, and that kind of hurts my feelings. It also makes me laugh. You really can't consider me and this person "friends" and it's been this way for quite awhile. And even though we aren't close anymore, i still wish the best for this person. But really? are you jealous? or are you bitter because of the way your life is going right now? i know everyone has problems in their life. i get it. I have people in my family who are sick, who don't have jobs, and i'm dealing with being alone away from everybody. But i don't sit and come up with crazy false things about people to make myself feel better. I am so grateful for what i do have in my life, and what will be here soon :). some people shouldn't be able to speak lol. anyway that's all i got right now. i'm gonna get back to my sunday. happy nascar everybody!

Baby Bump Thursday: 10 weeks

Yay we are in the double digits! woo hoo! I'm feeling more tired than ever, and i think the weather up here has something to do with it (besides of course the fact that i'm growing a human being!). It's always gloomy so that just makes me sleepy. 

So the baby is the size of a prune, about .14 oz. Dang that's small! The 10th week marks the beginning of a critical period our baby's development when all the vital organs have formed and are beginning to function. The baby is also growing tiny nails on the fingers and toes as well as tiny buds for teeth. (BTW, i don't make this up i have a baby bump app that gives me week by week info on the baby lol). Here is the belly.

Since i'm a second time mom, they say you start to show earlier, and can feel movements sooner too. I swear i feel this baby flutter all the time. 

We went to the dr. on monday and got to hear the heartbeat, and ami thought it was so cool! Later when we got home corey played the video he recorded of it, and ami said "baby!". It was so cute!

As for me, I'm feeling really down, and i even started crying at the dr's when she asked how i was doing! I thought it was just hormones at first, (even commercials would make me cry) but since i got back from cali i haven't been the same. I cried to corey last night for about an hour and luckily he had all the right words to tell me. I am just feeling so useless, with not working, or going to school. Trust me i want to, but daycare is WAY too much money, and i don't really know how much work i could do anyway, considering i have had some issues with my back already. I know i take care of a toddler all day and keep up with the house, but i still feel like i could do more. He assured me i do plenty, and even today he has helped so much! I'm so blessed to have him, i just wish my family was around too (and my close friends). I miss them all so much, and i wish they could all just take turns living up here with us so i have someone familiar with me. 

I dont know, i'm just struggling a lot more with this pregnancy than i ever remember with the first. I feel like it could be more than hormones, but who knows. And on top of all these crazy emotions, i find out there are "rumors" going around about a deployment to Afghanistan at the end of the year. Yep right when the baby should be here. Hopefully it's just a crazy rumor, but you never know. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time, because this is just way too stressful. I know there are others out in the world who are dealing with more, and who are pregnant at the same time, so i guess i should be thankful for what i do have. But i just can't help my thoughts and my emotions. I honestly can't wait till next month when we get to come to cali, because that's the only place that truly feels like home anymore. Well, i'm off to take a nap now, until next time friends :)

Baby Bump Thursday: 9 weeks

Ok Ok i missed a week! Sorry guys! California does that to me haha! When I get back to Washington i will definitely keep up with this thing!

So I'm 9 weeks today, and my baby our baby is the size of an olive (a green one to be exact). The hands and feet look a lot less like paddles and have more formed fingers and toes. The head is still larger than the rest of the body and the eyes are fully developed but are covered by the eyelids which are fused shut for the next 16 weeks or so. Inside the internal reproductive organs, testes or ovaries, are starting to form but will not be quite distinguishable until the next couple of weeks. 

Here is my pic

Again don't mind the messy hair and no make up lol. I'm really lazy lately sorry haha. 

I can't wait to have this baby already, and i really hope that all of my family can come up to washington for christmas (since i wont be able to fly and i dont wanna risk going into labor in the middle of a long drive lol). 

So this weekend was memorial weekend and i had so much fun. 

First off, on Friday i went to the Glee concert with 2 really good friends. I didn't take many pics because the lights at the concert blurred the people on the stage! but i have a few :)

 On the way to the concert (what? i was bored in the back seat lol)

 Before it started (BTW those jerseys you see right there were about 80 bucks! ridiculous!)

 Nikkie!!!!

 This was a little mini stage out in the middle of the audience, so they were really close to us here :) This is Puckerman with his guitar singing "Fat Bottomed Girls"

The Warborlers :) i really don't know how you spell that haha. 

 And my awesome Glee shirt!!

I dont know why i dont have any pics with Drea, but i know she got some on her camera. It was such a fun show and of course I cried a few times lol. 

I'm not gonna mention that a certain personal possession got lost and we had to drive all the way back to the Honda center (ahem Nikkie) lol. no but i'm glad i went with her, and i'm even more glad somebody actually turned it in with everything still in it! (there are still good people in the world)

On Sunday we had a BBQ at my parents' house and we had so much food i thought i was in heaven! haha. We made burgers and hot dogs and everyone brought side dishes, and boy it was all so good! I got to see a good friend from elementary school who i haven't seen since then! That was really nice catching up with her and meeting her adorable daughter and very nice fiance. Here is the cake, which i didn't even eat! surprising i know! 

 

I used an app on my phone called instagram to make it look like this. Download it!

I hope everyone had an amazing memorial day! I know i did! The only thing missing was my husband, the man of the hour haha!

Baby Bump Thursday: 7 weeks

Hello again! I am 7 weeks today, and I already feel like I have been pregnant forever! Probably because they changed my due date on me lol. But anyway, i'm feeling good, in a little bit of pain, but when am i not haha. 

So in the seventh week, my baby is the size of a blueberry, and is 10,000 times bigger than it was at the time of conception. That's crazy! The brain cells are growing at 100 per minute, the mouth and tongue are forming, and arm and leg buds are sprouting. Sometimes i swear i feel little flutters every now and then, but i might just be imagining things lol.

I took a pic of myself, it's not really a "bump" right now, but i promised a reader i would post them from now on :)

Don't mind the curly hair and no make up : p

Well that's all i have for today. I may take a nap (ami went bye bye with papa). Bye all!

 Don't forget to watch American Idol tonight!!!

Blessings

So i know it's been awhile since i have blogged. I decided i wasn't going to do it on the weekends, and i have had a lot going on the past couple of days. 

Sunday was Mother's day, and i got a wonderful breakfast made for me, complete with bacon, eggs, toast, and hashbrowns. It was so delicious! Then my hubby surprised me with my present, it was a beautiful hand made candle. It means a lot to us too because while we were dating in high school he bought a similar one for me when he went to hawaii with his family. It was much smaller but it was still pretty :) here it is

Ami wanted to pose in front of it lol. It's my favorite color and it's got pretty little bows on it :)

To continue with the day, we decided to spend a day at the zoo. It was so much fun. I love spending time with my family, especially seeing ami get so excited about the simplest things.

When we first got there, there were peacocks just walking around, and i thought that was odd. There was no trainer or anything walking with them, they were just roaming free. So we got a picture :)

Shortly after this was taken, the peacock started walking towards corey and shaking his feathers lol. 

We also got to feed the birds. They gave us sticks with this food substance on it, and we had to hold out our hand and the birds come and eat it. It scared ami at first, so i had to hold it for her. It was pretty cool until two birds started fighting on our stick haha

All in all it was a great day, not too hot and not raining either, just right. 

Now on to a serious note. I have been having some really bad back pain in my lower back, and yesterday it was to the point where i could walk, or sit down, and i couldn't even pick ami up. I was stuck on the couch with a heating pad, crying (that could be the hormones) because i didn't know what was wrong and why i was in so much pain this early in my pregnancy. (this is part of the reason i haven't blogged in a few days) So i went into the urgent care at the ob clinic (right before they were closing). She asked me a bunch of questions, and kind of got me worried. The questions she was asking made it seem like i could be mis-carrying, and of course i freaked out. I had to get a blood test and urine test done, and come back today. My numbers are very good in my blood work, and my urine came back great. So lastly they had to do an ultrasound to make sure everything matched up (the due date and the baby's measurements). Here is our little peanut :)

It's pretty much just a little ball with a heartbeat :) According to this she said the baby is measuring a little smaller than my original due date. So i am now due on Jan. 5th. Of course this could change many times throughout the pregnancy (we all know ami was 4 days late). Either way i'm beyond happy that everything is ok, and the little baby is fine. I can't wait to go home to cali in a few days to see everyone, i just hope i don't get sick on the plane! lol

BTW did anyone see glee last night? amazing! :)

T.G.I.F. New Hair

So i have been feeling really down on myself lately, mainly because of how much i weigh, especially since i'm so early in my pregnancy. I am so afraid i'm just gonna get as big as Shamu by the time this baby comes. SO i decided to dye my hair, to give me a little boost of confidence. I should say corey dyed it lol. Because he really did it for me (he offered!). I must say he did a very good job! there is only one spot that's still kind of light but it's hardly noticeable and i might just have to go buy another box to dye it again lol. Here is a pic.

 

Well that's all li have for now lol. I'm super tired (didn't sleep well last night) and i'm gonna try and nap! I might blog again later :)

Baby Bump Thursday: 6 weeks

So every Thursday is when i turn another week pregnant, so i decided that is when i will do all my baby updates. Today I am 6 weeks, and my baby is as big as a sweet pea! It is starting to form jaws, cheeks, and a chin, also ears. The kidneys, liver, and lungs are also starting to form. Today is also the first time i even felt the slightest bit sick. I never really got sick when i was pregnant with ami, so i'm hoping i get that lucky again! 

Today i had my first appointment, but it was just paper work and they told me my due date (Dec. 29) and went over family history. I had to tell them of any kind of diseases in my family and corey's family. So it went well. And ami even sat like a good girl the whole time! After that i had to go get blood drawn =/

 But i got a cool green band! yay!

I didn't pass out so that's always a good thing!

My next appointment is June 6th, and i will be able to hear the heartbeat for the first time. The only crappy part is corey will still be gone at the field, so that's just another thing he is gonna miss (gotta love the army).

Well I'm off to try and nap while ami is asleep! (making a baby is hard work! hehe)

Baby Names!

I know i already posted today, but i'm just curious, what do you guys have in mind for baby names? girl or boy? I would love to hear people's ideas although we have a few that are our favorites. Let's see what creative ideas you can come up with!

Play dates and maternity clothes :)

Happy Wednesday!

So i am part of a group on meetup.com and it's basically a group created by military moms that live here at Ft. Lewis, and so far it seems pretty cool! Me and Ami went to an easter egg hunt with a bunch of kids, we had a meet and greet at Raindrops and Rainbows (which is right by our house), and today, we had a play date with 2 other moms. They were both really nice, a little older than me, but still very friendly women. They each had 2 kids, and one of them is even pregnant too! We played at the park right behind her house, and blew bubbles! Ami is still kind of timid around other kids. It's almost like she doesn't know what to do around other kids! lol. It was a fun day though, except for my back hurting really bad (we walked since she lives so close but ami decided she was over it halfway there lol)

 I have a new app on my phone, and it lets me create cool effects with my pictures. It's called instagram in case anybody with an iphone/ipod wants to download it. Isn't she the cutest? :)

So since we have moved to Washington, i obviously gained weight, (well not so obvious for those who haven't seen me in a month) and i was getting pretty down on myself. But finding out i was pregnant again totally lifted my spirits, and made me realize that's probably one reason i was gaining weight. So i already had to bust out the maternity clothes from my first pregnancy since my clothes are starting not fit. Yay to elastic bands around my pants and not so cute clothes anymore! lol

Gosh time really flies way too fast. I feel like I just had ami, and now we are already planning another one! I can't wait to meet another blessing just like this one :)

So precious <3

I hope everyone has a wonderful day! Tell all your friends to follow me! I would love to have a bunch of people read my story! P.S. American Idol is on tonight! woo hoo!

My First Post!

So I got sucked into the blogging! HaHa. Well I figure this is a good way to take up my free time while Ami is napping! I can also share how life is going with all my friends and family back home! Let me warn you I'm not a very good writer, so forgive me if i'm not "gramatically correct" lol.  Here we go.....

We finally announced yesterday to everybody that we are pregnant again!
Here is the proof lol (i didn't realize how bad the quality of this picture was, but i promise there are 2 lines!)

We found out on Good Friday, and i called Corey at work, crying, because i couldn't believe it! I was so happy! We decided it would be fun to tell all of our loved ones in person when I go home in a couple weeks, because with our first baby we were living in Georgia, and it kinda sucked not getting hugs from anybody lol. So i have been holding it in for a little over a week (which is a long time for me hehe). But yesterday while we were skyping with my parents, i whispered to Corey that we should tell them! Luckily he said yes haha. He drew on a onesie and it said "I'm going to be a big sister"

My mom realized it first and she was very excited! My dad i think was just shocked because he was speechless! lol From there the text messages started buzzing through the air and i'm sure the whole family found out within minutes! I was so relieved to finally tell everybody!

I have my first dr. appointment on thursday, and i'm so excited!  I don't think we get to hear the heartbeat or anything, because it's just an informational appointment. So we get to go over family history and all that fun stuff...maybe even some blood work if i'm lucky! (sarcasm)
Thank you to everybody who sent us well wishes! We are beyond happy and can't wait to meet another little baby this holiday season! We might be looking at a white christmas too! Yay!